Sep 04 2008
You Say It’s Your Birthday…
It’s my birthday too! :D
I am 32 today. I don’t feel 32. I feel more like 27. I still am shocked that I am in my 30’s. It just doesn’t seem right.
Since mid-August, some people have been asking for a birthday wish list. The thing is, I don’t really need anything. Except maybe underwear, but I’d rather my family and friends not purchase such things.
I did compile a list of books that I want. I also wanted some extras for my laptop and a couple of cd’s. I come across things I would like through the year and think, “I’ll have to remember that for my birthday or Christmas list,” but then I forget what it was I wanted when it’s time to make that list…oh well.
The thing is, no one can give me the things I really want and really need.
The things I really want and need are the things I am searching for: a satisfying career, spirituality, balance, love, happiness.
The thing that I want and need most, no one can give me. I have to find them for myself.
I had thought, when I was young, that I’d have those things by now. I had set a time frame for which I thought I should have attained each of these things. I have a visual of what my life should be and this is not it.
If I were only searching for one or two of these things, it might not be as frustrating, but trying to reach each one at the same time is sometimes overwhelming. Another year has passed, rather quickly at that, and I have not come any closer to finding happiness.
I am determined to make the most of this, my 32nd year. I will get at least one step closer to happiness.
Happy Birthday! I hope you recieve all your birthday wishes. Thanks for leaving the comment.
xoxoxo martini
Thanks for all the b-day wishes!
Happy Belated Birthday from here in Sweden. If it helps any, I met my hubby of now 10 years when I was 32! Hope this is your year for everything you want to fall into place. Hope you had a great day.
Happy Birthday!!
Am sorry, am late. I hope you had a wonderful birthday yesterday. I wish you more blessings in life, and blessings of your heart’s desires.
Wow! I’m overwhelmed with all the love and birthday wishes! Thank you all so much!!!
Hello and Belated Happy Birthday. Thanks for welcoming me to Today also in the Forum. I linked you in my YOUR Links. I hope you dont mind. Take care
Happy birthday!
I’ve always said the 30s are the best decade ever, because you’re old enough to know better but young enough to do it anyway.
Mind you, I’m 41 and haven’t stopped doing it anyway … %-D
I’m tempted to keep my mouth shut, but it’s so big and heavy I can’t. I had thoughts very similar to your once, regarding searching for things. Hindsight being 20/20, I have a secret to share with you. Happiness, Balance, and Satisfying career are no found by searching. Actually, they’re not “found” at all. They are created. By accepting who you are completely and working within that acceptance, you create happiness, balance and are more satisfied in general. By not trying to make yourself fit into a predetermined box or category or social norm, by accepting your warts, idiosyncracies and morning breath. Seriously, I am not shitting you. I swear, I swear, I swear. Happy Birthday # 9 (you know what I’m talkin’ about Mis Popularity)!
thanks everyone!
yolander, a) never feel the need to keep your mouth shut with me. b) to a degree I see what you mean. It’s a feeling I am searching for. The feeling of enjoying my work, the feeling of belonging in my spiritual path, love, feeling balance between what I want and what others want from me. I am satisfied in who I am, but I want all of those things, so I have to search until I am satisfied. I can pick a career, but I can’t make myself enjoy it. I can pick a religion, but that doesn’t mean I fit there. Life is really about searching for true happiness in an ever changing world. I will always be searching for something. I hope that makes sense.